feeling: listless
song of the day: B.O.D.Y - VIXX
good mornin yall. it's 6:44 AM, i been waking up at the ass crack o dawn lately around 5 ish. sometimes i sleep for another hour or read in bed and then get up for coffee and poo. and kitty cuddles. good slice of life over here. what could make it better? perhaps the presence of another... but at the same time, i really truly cant imagine myself sharing space ith someone and not constantly being problematic about it?? idk i guess we gonna find out one of these days
i won't lie, life has been feeling kind of boring lately. not necessarily boring, what with all the SHIT happening in america rn... but life feels weird, operating like business as usual while a coup is being run a few hours south of me. that's totally normal!
i can't even really harp on it because nobody here gives an active shit at all. i literally debated with a client over raising federal minimum wage, and if yu want an insight into some of these people, they genuinely believe raising fed min wage means just that, and absolutely nothing else will go up and all these businesses will lose money and have to close? i'm glad you feel bad for the businesses you dumb fucking cunt, but everything goes up to keep the market competitive and thus more money will be circulated into the lowest parts of our economy instead of staying there at the top and never going anywhere. it's called forcing the economics to trickle down instead of crossing our fingers and hoping those greedy dragon-madness bastards will give back to the workers they exploited for their wealth. besides that, she couldn't agree that it's morally wrong to pay someone less than it costs to have food and shelter. she says, "get a different or second job!" i have POTS and i can't just "get another job" or i will work myself to death. AND IF MINIMUM WAGE IS 7.25 HOW MANY PLACES WILL PAY ABV A LIVING WAGE HOW MANY WILL EVEN HAVE POSITIONS AVAILABLE?
there is no getting thru to these ppl i fear. i don't know what to do anymore... if we can't agree on issues like that i honestly don't see a path into agreeing over the true purpose of dei, the LONG standing issue of israels crimes against palestine and the genocide in gaza, the fact that gutting these govt departments that are crucial for our foreign relations across the globe is going to seriously hurt us... its so much stress. i don't know how to keep living when i feel like i do all that i can and it still isn't enough. i don't know.
well that's it for today. bit of a sad entry. i hope everyone else out in the world has had a better week and that the next is just as fulfilling.